A long hard journey

My journey to weight loss has not been easy. I have gone from 259 up to 263 maybe a bit more, I was disappointed in my self, but I kept going. I knew it would be better. I knew I would start to drop the weight. While I had good weeks, days I also had my bad days. One day I would be down to a great weight and the next day I would be back up. Right now I sit at 16lbs down! I hope I am down a bit more before weigh in. So we did measurements on the 20th of may and tonight find out how much is off.  I am looking forward to the next month of loss. Hoping for about the same amount of loss or more. If I can drop 10-15lbs a month for the first few months I will be happy. I really want to be under 200 by the new yr. That would mean I would have to keep up at the speed I am going now. If for the first few months I drop more then 15lbs I could go to just 5-8lb loss each month and still get to my goal by New Years. Then I will be 5m from 1 yr since starting. At 1 yr I am not really sure where I wanna be to be honest. I truly want to be 170, although by my height I should be between 124-153 I don't think I would look good below 150. I don't ever remember being that weight. I guess my 2 yr goal could be 150 and tone. I really just want to fit in clothes. Don't we all? I am making this change for more then that though. My dad, grandmother, brother, sister all have diabetes, all adult onset. So that scares me a lot! I don't have any markers for it and am tested regularly, but doesn't mean I won't get it. I am at high risk the longer I keep the weight on. Heart issues run very high on the other side of the family. So if I don't get this weight off I will not be here for my kids. That scares me! Leaving my kids breaks my heart. I love my husband and kids way to much to just let myself go. I am done letting my life slip by. I also want more kids. I want that cute belly. While I did have the oh she is pregnant it was not pretty with all the added fat. So I am going to work my core hard the next few weeks to get it going then keep going at a more mild routine. We stopped trying for a baby, I'll explain in another post. I want to be healthy for the next baby. 

Here is to the next month of working out and making my life better.

I'll update with official lbs lost and measurements later :)